So there is but fire In you, in me?

I am mapping the land in which I live.  My home is a Jenga tower. I take half my husband's salary until he stops me is one way to look at this . So, every month it could be that he has shifted his salary to another account and therefore I'd have no money. The other way to see this is, he needs to divorce me.  And I need him to believe that I'm broken, because that is safer. I earn money as a therapist sometimes . I can't earn money from where I had my placement until I get my qualification paperwork sorted out. I am waiting for my college to send me my certificate, and then I will be waiting for my professional body to confirm my qualification - and then I need to do their viva. The other place I work has run out of funding, so last month I earnt £30. So, let's say January, perhaps!  And then I can apply for jobs?  Roof leaks, things need replacing.  And there is a whole load of moldy baggage I could delve into about how most counsellors are middle class women suppo

Yesterday,  I remembered the  Tic Tac . I saw it on September 7th and I was in Bromsgrove. I had got out of my car and as I looked up, I noticed an odd, white, flying thing .  To be honest, my first though was  -  is that a peddle bin? I watched, and tried to make sense of it, and I gave up! But it was absolutely not a bin. It wove in and out of the cloud.  When I arrived at my friend's house, I said ' I think I've just seen a UFO' and everyone else decided that 'it was probably a drone' - and a part of me agreed and I said  'it was probably Google'! 'It was probably Google ' that makes even less sense! So I had forgotten about that until yesterday, almost forty days ago now! Why? And why hadn't I asked myself questions about what it could be? The first reason is the miasma of fear surrounding these things. I actually felt scared when I thought of talking about it. Fear is part of the UAP experience it seems. But the second, more interesting