Hopeless.

Realizing that OCD fits the symptoms demonstrated by Josh explains why the SSI and anti-psychotic drugs had zero effect on his repetitive, endless, self-recriminations.

The stuff about Satan and Christ and being in Hell were fueled by morphine, Tramadol and the rest of the drugs, while his obsessional, compulsive thinking magnifies any emotive thing that crosses his mind. And it will remain so until he realizes that he is the cause of his own despair.

How many people are in our position?

How many families around the country are trying not to get sucked into the whirlpool of mental torment and twaddle OCD creates?

There are targets to be reached every month - August is dealing with hyper-vigilance - meaning I need to see serious attempts by Josh that he is beginning to recognize when a wave of anxiety begins.