Trying to gather my experiences, fold them up and place them on the shelf.

The anti-psychotics
Are just the way it is.
Medical treatment of any kind is constrained by money, and policy
Ultimately truth seeking is expensive, and truth preserving is normal.
Messing with a person's dopamine improves things for some people.
It also gives others Parkinson's
And there is no way to compare and contrast different approaches.

To be honest, the best treatment for immediate improvement, was giving him the prayers and the crucifix. The accidental synchronicity of a reference having his ward number in it, helped.

The gold standard for this kind of interaction is in Valis [P K Dick] in Valis P K talks about the psychiatrist who discusses the Nag Hammadi (early Gnostic texts) with him. This psychiatrist enables P K to feel that he isn't mad...and P K does a lot better (suicidal thoughts go away...) while the psychiatrist is on his side.

P K Dick eventually placed his experiences within the framework of spiritual emergency.

"I experienced an invasion of my mind by a transcendentally rational mind, as if I had been insane all my life and suddenly I had become sane,"

The idea of madness as a spiritual emergency is a lot kinder than the diabetes / illness model. Ultimately the concept within Valis, and within Dick's experiences is a feeling (in the transpersonal, Groffian sense) or perhaps it is truth on some level.

What mattered is the pain P K felt....

His Exegesis - the explanation of his psychotic beliefs -  is within the book Valis.
 I found it extremely boring and totally unreadable, and I have quite a high threshold for that kind of stuff, but nevertheless - Exegesis mattered to P K

Josh's religious iconography - his exegesis -  is alive and personal, and is a part of the working out process of the stuff he can't defrag....

Anyway
Josh is about to be taken to hell
As far as his belief system defines it...

Transportation to the psychiatric hospital may happen tonight.