Birthday..

Josh's birthday.

About to go out for a meal.

Things felt good, better..

At 4:14pm the phone rang.

Unknown number

But I knew...

The nurse explained

There had been a mistake

The psychiatrist had not authorized Service User's 'leave'

I was asked to bring him back..

So he could See a psychiatrist tomorrow...

As I said no

In any and all manner of polite ways..

As I spoke 

I began to shake with rage.

The nurse was adamant

My refusal was absolute.

She said she would send transport

At which point I made it clear that we would be out of the house.

When the call ended I curled into a tight ball and screamed with fury

The way we have been treated is appalling.

We naively went to that hospital expecting help. 

We were made to feel useless, helpless and disempowered.

And now we really know what their help is...